FUCK!

May 15, 2006
10:01 AM

WTF!

why does everything go great one day then turn around and be so shitty the next? yesterday i had fun, i didnt go to bed early but i didnt stay up to late either. then this morning i went to work and everything was goin good till my back started hurting. then i got a headache, then i walked to johnson to see heather like i do every monday and she wasnt there yet so i was gonna call her house or one of her friends and see where she was, and guess fuckin what? my phone is shut off! i really shouldnt be this surprised, it was due on the first and ron said that he would pay it, but why should he if he went out and got himself a brand new fuckin shiny one?! why should anyone do any fuckin thing? where does it get us, debt, a shut off phone, a paycheck that hasnt even arrived and yet its all spent?

so for the moment my phone is off, and it will be off for a day or two till i can get my check in the bank, well first i guess i have to get it in the mail lol. im gonna ask him if he can pay part of it but i know he wont, there will be some lame excuse why he doesnt have any money and why i cant have the phone back yet, why he hasnt taken the rings back and also why he cant bring them to me. theres always something. IM SO FUCKIN DONE. this is all bullshit and i dont want to have to deal with it anymore, i just want to take care of my shit and be done, i dont want to have to call him everytime there is an issue with a fuckin bill. this is so insane.

if he lives in town now there is no reason why he cant bring the rings and the phone to me. i dont need any money for the fuckin bill, ill do it on my own. i dont need the money he promised me for all my bills that we racked up together, ill do that by myself too. and i dont need him to help me get a car like he promised either. he promised a lot of things and i dont expect to ever see them, i just want to be done. i want my phone and i want my rings!