FUCKIN A

May 22, 2006
9:58 AM

why the fuck does everything have to be so damn stupid and difficult? why do i always make stupid decisions that make things worse in the end?

if i hadnt been so stupid and moved to marysville i would be financially stable enough to possibly help my sisters when they needed it. they need me now most of all and i cant do a fuckin thing. all i can do is sit here and watch the shit hit the fan again.

i should be doing something for them, but i cant, i have nothing to offer them. nothing at all. they cant depend on me or even look up to me. i havent done anything but fuck my life up. just like my mother

im sorry girls, im sorry for not being there for u, sorry for moving away and abandoning u, sorry for all the times i was so selfish. im so sorry, i really am.