Mar 24, 2006
8:04 AM
i wish things were easy, i really do.
i dont know whats goin on in his head and i wish i did.
i know what i want and im just waiting for him to figure out what he wants.
i think i know what he has chosen though, i just feel it
its not the same at night sleeping, he doesnt touch me, lays almost as far away from me as he can.
he doesnt try to hold my hand in the car to reassure me that things are gonna work themselves out.
he hadnt tried to kiss me, and when he did this morning he went for my cheek.
he hasnt called me, even when he is hours late coming home and im worried if he is even coming home that night, its me that calls him, just to make sure he is still alive.
i put my hand on his leg in the car, hold him in bed in the morning, lay a little closer to him at night, and it feels like he doesnt care anymore.
how can i be losing someone i love so much
it hurts so much
ive spend 3 days straight crying, cuz im afraid of this outcome.
i hope he is just confused and hasnt made up his mind yet
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