Tomorrow

Apr 14, 2006
10:39 AM

how can others make it look so easy, how can u just go on with ur life like nothing happened. how do u make it stop hurting. how do u keep ur mind from wandering when it has nothing else to think about. how do u not cry at the thought of losing someone u love so much, and knowing they r not coming back. how do u control it. i want to know. i want to make it stop.
every time i see something or do something i think of him and miss him. and i am envious of anyone who doesnt have those thoughts and feelings.
i just want it to go away and no matter how hard i try its still there and it sneaks up on me all the time.

do u know what its like to be thrown away, treated like ur garbage. left alone and no one cares. ever been so blind that u didnt even see how vulnerable u really were until it was too late. ever poured ur heart and soul into something then have it ripped away form u. have u ever seen the future and really saw something, then all of a sudden its like u dont know what tomorrow is gonna look like cuz nothing is the same anymore.

theres no feeling like feeling that u are completley expendable.

i dont matter and i never did or it wouldnt be that easy to not care.