Me

Jul 13, 2006
9:21 PM

basically i hate who i have become, everything that i am. i look in the mirror and i dont know who i am anymore. i dont know what i am doing or where i am going. all i know is my past, and thats i have go on, which disgusts me.

i had made peace with my past and my choices and realized that i am not proud of any of it, but it made me who i am and i have to accept it and move on. thats what i simply did, i changed my actions and moved on. it was all too simple, but why cant it be simple like that. why does ur past have to come back to haunt the present or future? why does it have to effect things that would otherwise be, the happiest moments i have had in a long time?

my actions dont just effect me, but it also effects others around me. and i feel so horrible that i didnt make the effort to say something when i should have. i subjected someone to something that they had no idea of, thats completley on me.

to anyone that my actions may have hurt, im truly sorry



Comment (1)
Tara Truex:
            I can see what your saying. Im not going to go into details of how i feel about things cause its not my place. But i can tell you that i will always care for you rachel. You will always be one of my best friends, even though we seem to be growing apart. I to am in a rut that i cant seem to get out of and i cant stand to hear negative comments all the time about me working, but i want you to know that your welcome around me you and james.
            Love you both