Left my 7 up

Apr 1, 2006
10:11 AM

k, well me and ron are split up now. i dont know why it all came as such a shock to me. i was so unprepared for any of this. to me everything was fine. i guess i was wrong. like i always am.

i found someone who made me happy and seemed happy to be with me. so i jumped at the chance to be with him. i moved in because it seemed like the logical thing to do. it was hard being in a seprate town than him. (maybe thats where i went wrong, maybe he really didnt want to see me every day or every morning right next to him.)
i was so happy that he would really want to marry me, someone willing to spend the rest of their life with ME. i jumped right on board, willing to do anything for someone who i loved so much and thought that they loved me so much too.

i realize now that i always used to think along the lines of if something is too good to be true then it prolly is. this whole thing was perfect to me. and i didnt see that it could have been to perfect to last. i guess i was just too young and nieve (if thats how u spell that), i was too willing to believe anything that he said.

for me this was a chance at finally being happy and a chance at a life. i was growing up and i was truly happy. now i get to start all over again.

i guess im just lucky that i have friends that still care. i dont know what i would do without them. thanks u guys.

its gonna take me a while to get back to normal. right now i just feel so stupid, and kinda lost. but i hope that will go away.