Not for me

Apr 12, 2006
1:16 PM

why does life do this to me?

i knew this would all happen, thats why i was hesitant in the beginning.

now that i know that i am capable of being thrown away it makes me feel like garbage. i did something wrong and i have no idea precisely what it is. but i know it was my fault. and if i did nothing wrong at all then i was blind and stupid.

bottom line, im not meant to be happy. every time i try something happens. i guess its just not for me. i will always have a lonley sad life and there is no reason to think that things will change. it always goes back to the same place.

im tired and i have finally realized that i have no energy to try anymore, its all pointless.