Ridiculskdfesovnac

Apr 1, 2008
11:02 PM

Have you ever tried to put on mascara on with tears in your eyes? It’s quite a challenge.

I thougth this day was a good day, maybe I was wrong all along. You were angry from the moment I texted you to tell you the date of the party. Which is probably why you didn’t respond. You were angry for not considering you in the booking of my party. You were angry at the timing I picked, angry at me for being so inconsiderate of what you wanted.
Then you got angry at me for buying that v8 thing. Because aparently I get mad at you for the same thing. And you know what? I don’t even remember the last time I told you we had soda at home and not to get something on the go. As a matter of fact, last weekend when we were at the flea market I got a water and you got a soda. And at the gas station I got that fuze thing, and you got two pepsis. But did I tell you, we have those at home, either time? Nope. But you still jumped at the opportunity to yell at me for buying what I did.
Every time I stop caring about the world and every single thing in my life all at the same time, when I just do just because, when I live a little, there is hell to pay. Now I feel like shit again. I’m tired because yet again I only got maybe two hours of sleep last night, of which is taking its toll on me, I sleep half the day at work cuz I can’t physically stay awake.
I don’t even want to go back to work right now. Seems a little ironic. My job is to deal with, help, and control emotionally disturbed children, and yet I’m not emotionally stable myself. How does that work? Does it really matter, its the only thing I can do, right? I’m stuck. I’m hopeless. This is all so fuckin ridiculous.



Michael Burton
        Yay lets blame Mike again. It's always Mike. Geuss I am a piece of shit. What the hell do you want me to do? You booked this party for the worst time and you didn't talk to me about it. GOD DAMN I'm sorry I wanted to be part of that choice since I am beign kicked the fuck out of the house for some 5-6 hours... So Here I am, out of the house for 5 hours broke as shit pay day is 3 days away and all so you can have something with your friends. But I'm the piece of shit ok. Fine. Guess I am.